oh i know these have been traumatic postings as of late, they just reflect my fear of this huge unknown, talk about a great leap. and it would help if i felt better but i'm still sick ( body BODY ). strange
dreams. trains. futuristic.
forgetting bags.
forgetting everything.
i did not have dreams like this before anything i've ever done before, marriage, leaving home at 11 didn't bother me one bit. this, on the other hand...well. i'm sure it'll be fine. i was looking at photo's i took last year while in the country. they are beautiful. the work will be hard. people say rewarding. actually i doubt that. frustrating and at times awful i would say. the work part i know. dealing with human suffering is the same the world over. it's the scale of it that terrifies me now. and the responsibility. i have lots of people with way more skills than me to rely on here. i can't deliver babies, do surgery, diagnose tropical disease, cure meningitis without drugs, feed the starving, cure HIV, cure TB, put a leg back on a child blown off that morning by a landmine...
yeah. that's me. with some of my paintings. the two on the left are called
immortal (perishable)
perishable (immortal)
i painted them for my dad, who died in july.i'm going to cambodia to do medical work. yup. that's about it.
happy new year.
may 2007 be wonderous for all.