when it becomes product

when i want to know who looks, how to get them to look, how to get them to love then it is product is is manufacturing it is business not pure not honest not even very friendly. i've been making for the last 10 days straight and i feel overwhelmingly wrungout. took a lot longer than i thought. 4 big canvases, still working on those. papers too, but got to move on what to do with them, showing, framing, what is framing, it's display, it's marketability, isn't that back to selling and whoring? running all sorts of directions ultimately quite fast, like background static. gotta write something today too, was a promise. must keep those. promises. must. yes. mittens would be good, puffy things around my noisy parts.