the sublime,the strange, and the human condition

in an odd somewhat toulouse lautrec type of mode
tomorrow. after work i'm going first for some
thai food then off to a drinking establishment that
hosts a figure drawing session, i believe with some
of society's lesser drawn types as the models... it
costs only 5 dollars, not much at all. plus tips for
the models one would think...
i hope it is not exploitative yet i am unable to judge
till i go and honestly, this seems quite fascinating.
i'm quite excited. it's been ages since i drew a human,
and longer still since it was a less than perfect one.
( although i am surrounded by deformity, impairment
and the cruelty of abject physical and mental health in
my day to day experience, i am not at liberty, nor would
i wish to, translate that experience into direct art product.
although of course this exposure bends who i am and
girds the loins of my reality in a manner i have only
just recently had the clarity to face. it took an intelligent
and clear thinking individual, who as a rule cuts through
the crap to make me realize what an ass i was to try to
ignore my vocation . ah, if only i had learned other key
lessons as well, but i digress into maudlin wadings here )
ANYWAY, as for the drawing, i don't really know what
to expect. the romantic in me can't help but think of that
french fin-de-siecle harsh realism and despair... i rather
love that...
might post a pic if it doesn't totally suck...